hello people,

just a quick note since i'd just gotten into work. carlin has put up his pictures of our holiday party. all i have to say is i need to start getting back into shape. i have no jaw line on the sides of my face. what's going on? anyway, here's the link if you're so inclined, click here.

i was flipping through the channels last night and abc was showing, "the sound of music." i think that's my favorite musical of all time. awesome songs, beautiful scenery, incredible cinematography and just an overall wonderful story. not to mention that julie andrews was pretty hot in the day. so to continue, i caught the scene where the captain, played by christopher plummer, was playing "edelweiss" for his children, the evil baroness, max detweiler, and of course, the lovely maria. i really like that song, probably second only to, "the sound of music." i think one of the reasons why i really like this movie is because, and i'm almost afraid to say it, but there's a scene in the movie which always make me teary-eyed. it starts with the captain coming back from his vacation with the baroness only to see his children climbing up trees and traipsing around town in their lime-green coloured play clothes. he confronts maria and an argument ensues, whereupon he tells her to pack her things and go back to the abbey. all of a sudden, he hears singing and questions maria about it. she says that it was the children; she had taught them to sing for the baroness. the captain rushes back into the house and stops right in front of the the room, and slowly recognizes the song (wonderfully played by plummer here). he then walks into the room and with his wonderful voice, sings, "i... go to the hills, when my heart is lonely. i know i will hear, what i've heard before. the hills fill my heart with the sound of music, and i'll sing once more." MAN, if that doesn't get you emotional, i don't know what will. (cry you damn robot!)

several things that i should change for the new year:

1. i need to go to sleep at a decent hour. i'm beginning to keep "carlin hours" except it's worse cuz i don't have the luxury of waking up at 11:30am or 12:00pm. for example, i don't know why, but i was up til 4:30am last night and woke up at 10:00am this morning. there's really no logical reasons for doing that. i was just up, wasting valuable time that could have been used for sleep. so for the new year, i will go to bed early, like say... 1:30am or 2:00am. and it shouldn't be that hard since i'm going to be getting my new bed in seven days. let the countdown begin.

2. i need to start hitting the gym again. that's the one bad thing about gyms; if you stop going, even for like a week or two, you just stop going. you have to keep up the routine and keep it going no matter what. i was in pretty good shape last year with all the running, the weight lifting, and the healthy eating. now i eat food that are bad for me, i don't workout, and what's running again? i joined a marathon training group when i was last with christina, and it was pretty fun. well maybe except for the fact that the run started at 6:00am on saturday mornings. but somehow, i always get this incredible feeling when i do do it. there's just something about running at 6am in the morning, with the cool brisk air, the vast, dark ocean next to you, and the sun barely peaking out of the somber sky. it's almost magical, and i should get into that again.

3. i need to stop being so damn anal. i swear to god, i was really good about not being anal for the past 25.5 years that i've been living on earth. but the last couple of months been like, "ANAL FEST 2002." at this point, i'm so easily annoyed by people, especially a couple of my friends. and i keep telling carlin that he should just take back his "anality" because i don't want it anymore. what's going on with me? damn, just knowing that i'm becoming more anal, is pissing me off even more. this just shows that i'm anal about my "anality" and it's just a cyclical thing. blimey!

4. i need to re-evaluate my life. along with the aforementioned anality, i've noticed lately that i've become very impassive and torpid about things that concern my well-being. it's like i don't care about anything anymore. i know that completely contradicts point 3 because in order to be anal, you have to care. but i'm talking about like life in general, and not having a short-leash with people. several things that are beginning to bother/worry me: that i'm not trying hard to find a career, i should be thinking about a major to study in graduate school and i don't care if ever date again. the latter is kinda scary, cuz i don't want to die an old, lonely man. i want to have a big family with tons of grandkids, etc. right now, all i do is wake up, drive 20 miles to a job that doesn't interest me, and then go home and sit in front of the television. i really need to do something... maybe take a class over at smc to resuscitate the passion i once had for life.

that's it. i should go get some lunch right now, but no one is here at work. everyone else is gone and i'm not sure what to do. i'm kinda hungry and i really don't want to leave the office unattended. crap! oh and what's up with the freaking gay hobbits in "lord of the rings?" take for example, towards the end of the movie when frodo and samwise were walking in the woods. sam started babbling about if people will talk about frodo and the magic ring in the future (clearly trying to talk up frodo). then frodo pretends that he doesn't know what sam is getting at (clearly trying to play hard to get), and says something about sam being an important part of the story. and it gets even worse. seconds later, frodo finally decides to be the male dyke of the relationship, and says, "you're my sam," and turns around with a smile that suggests that sam's going to have a very sore anus tomorrow morning. anyway, i think peter jackson should have made the film with the hobbits a little less gay. i mean there's always been and always will be friendship and camaraderie between guys, but frodo and sam takes it to a "hole" new level.

song/album of the day: "rain king" by the counting crows

time stuck in traffic: about 10 minutes. not too bad.
posted by your arse at 2:43 PM